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hospitals are just so surreal- to build a routine in, build a home in

yan-wo:

Malwine Stauss

For days, she said we were being stalked -
she would point to nothing hidden behind the trees around me -
we would sit on the terrace,
wrapped in blankets,
and i would try SO hard and SO desperately to see what she was seeing.
That certain and definitive ground kids seem to take step after step on, it disappeared from beneath me that week -
What seemed momentous and fleeting at the time - quite grown up of me to talk to the cops and let them know she had just stopped drinking after 35 days…there is no one….please leave…
i think i hold onto that before and after a lot more than expected.
i did feel the least certain about what life was as a 12 year old when i realized my mother was quite literally not in control of her mind.
this was my mama -
who would press my legs and press my back every night to put me to sleep,  she’d keep at bay any arthritis; for it to not even touch my joints, the way it has scored hers to shreds. 
she was still that woman, just a lot less god-like.

1. How do nucleotides translate into overall functions? i don’t mean how it is transcribed and translated into proteins….how does it eventually behave ligand-like to signal functions - how does it know to control (homeostatically) just through a chemical? which functions to activate or deactivate…
2. How do atoms translate into thought? memory is so intangible, but i hold onto it within the cell bodies of my hippocampus and others…what am i storing

equitable access to genetic technology and gene therapy
More control over your genetics i.e more knowledgeable - you know of your own genetic code
if I had to ask you - you would know why your carbonic anhydrase is different from mine! where your bases differ from mine

im 23 now!